I'm done with exams, as you can see. And this week started with my Shadow Attachment at RIPAS Hospital at the Paediatrics Department. So far it has been swell. The doctors have been teaching me well and I actually have assignments to do. Gotta search for the answers later.
Although I've been having a great time staying there, the experience also made me rethink everything about my future. I had to recheck with myself if this is what I really wanted. If you were here to see my moods, you would see that nowadays I'm strangely quiet. This is because I've been feeling really depressed. For one thing, because the doctors have been telling me to just study in the Philippines, which is a better option, they say. This all means that whether I get good grades or not, it'll still be beneficial to me. Funny actually.
Upsides of Phil:
Will learn how to be independent
New friends
More hands-on teaching
Will be studying most of the time due to boredom
Can experience new things
Downsides of Phil:
Will be a complete outsider (most probably)
Dangerous
No social life (no hanging out with friends) <- I'm OK with this actually
Upsides of Bru:
My whole family is here
My friends are here
Peaceful & safe (won't be living in fear)
I'm free to go anywhere
Will be able to see my little cousin, Ben James, grow up.
Downsides of Bru:
I'll feel trapped
No new environment
I would get bored soon enough
I'll just add more pros and cons if I can think of any. I wonder if anyone has made this kind of decision before? Oh well, let's leave it to fate. If I've gotten good grades, then it's a sign that God wants me to study here. If not, I'm off to Phil. Win-win situation if you look at it from my perspective.
Anyway, I'll be off now. Have to finish watching You're Beautiful (the last episodes which I missed) & new drama: Playful Kiss. Just going to give it a chance since I was a big fan of the Taiwanese one: It Started With a Kiss. Will see, will see.
yours truly,
`R
